Thankful for ... what exactly?
Of course, the "in thing" to do this week is to recount all the things one is thankful for. I seem to be having a bit of a problem with that ...It's like this ... I could name things that I am thankful for, but each one is followed by a "BUT" which contradicts the good. Like, I am thankful for the nice house I live in, BUT I have no idea how I am going to pay the rent this month. Or, I am thankful for my kids, BUT their issues and difficulties are tearing me completely apart. See what I mean?
For months, I have been wallowing in a depression that is deeper and darker than any I have ever been in before. Along with that, I have anxiety issues bordering on full-blown panic attacks. I thought I also had a good measure of paranoia going on, but I have since discovered that I don't. People really don't like me or want me around ... it wasn't just my imagination! That's such a relief! So, in my never-ending quest to make everyone happy, I will be retiring back into my little hermit world where I won't piss off or offend people just with the mere fact that I exist anymore.
Have a good holiday, folks. Be thankful you aren't as screwed up as I am.
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